- Friday, 29 May 2009
holiday bermula...patotnye aku stay umah zai on that day...but zai urgent balik kampung,so aku agak takde tmpat nak stay..memule nak stay umah fieza,but then anep kata,stay umah dea...so aku stay je lah umah dea...best...best... aku dapat spent masa lama gila ngn anep...1st time dpt tidoq dengan dea...no need to mentioned here ape yg terjadi kot..ape pon..aku tersangat happy...cuma...time kami duk usha2 gambaq,suddenly ade pix aku n jack...aku pon tak expect gambaq tuh still ada..aku tak filter abeh gambaq2 yg ada...memule 1,then ade agi 1...anep trus kata"buang dulu.." trus dea bangun,kluwa minum air..i just expect,maybe he trase,aku still kept that fucking picture coz aku kata aku dah buang suma...after dea masuk memasing senyap...sand then,ade 1 aku agak trasa,dea dpt msg nyon nak add YM dea...then he message nyon(time aku n dea senyap seketika)...but then nyon reply...sorry sayang aku terkacau benda privacy ko..aku tak ptot kot buat mcm tue...aku minta maaf sesangat...aku tak nak buat lagi..kalau aku terbuat hope ko tegow aku sayang...
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if aku percaye anep,aku takkan buat mcm tuh..it was my mistake to do that...aku ase bersalah sebab aku amek hp dea..ikutkan saja2 nak tgok tp aku nampak msg from nyon..even aku tatau ia dtg dari nyon tp aku still igt number nyon sama dengan dea...tapi,anep tak marah aku pon aku tertengok hp dea... sebab aku pernah buat mcmnie...and aku kena marah sesangat dengan ape aku buat coz aku menganggu privacy orang.. tp tak semestinye dea tak marah,aku boleh buat ape2 je,and take advantage..aku kene respect privacy dea...emi,pls...sila brubah....
- Saturday, 30 May 2009
bangun tidoq lewat,sebab smalamnya tidoq lewat.... kitorang berborak...sampai aku mengantuk...dea peluk aku time aku nak tidoq...tp bila aku celik ja,dea kat katil bob..huwaaaa.... aku nak tidoq peluk dea..tp dea kata panas..so takpe lew...aku bangun awal dr dea...aku bebangun,aku tenung dea...honestly...aku always cari chances untuk tenung muka dea sesenyap...especially time dea tido...everytime aku tengok dea time dea tak sedar,aku always ckp benda2 nie dalam hati.. "aku tatau mcmana nak bersyukur yg aku dapat ko... aku tak pernah rase sebahagea mcmnie...why ko pilih aku sedangkan banyak lagi orang2 yg perfect ko boleh dapat...do u really love me just like i do? do u really accept me? do you know how much i love u anep? what will happen to me if aku hilang ko? is it the last time aku tenung ko?" damn!! banyak bende2 tersirat dalam hati aku bila aku tenung dea... sometimes,aku ase mcm...(________________)** fuck!! fuck!!! sesikit nak nanges aku nie..eish!!!ok ...then anep bangun..i kiss him.. and kiss him...hug him..pampered him...then kitorang kuwa pi makan...balik tue,aku trus ke leptop aku..aku dpt YM dari someone...tgok dedekat...YM from jack..what the heck?!! ape dea nak dari aku lagi?? motif??? malam tuh sid datang,aku tertidoq,then aku terjaga..then tgok dea maen guitar sat...then tengok anep maen guitar..seriously aku sangat suka tgok dea maen guitar..sangat..muncung sayang...hehehehe..aku suka..suka sesangat ko maen guitar depan aku..u look so ....argghhhh!!!!!! then we slept..slept..slept..slept...hahaahahha... dont think bout that thing to much sayang..im sure takde pape ok?pls....
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aku sorang yg agak suke pikir mende bukan2...hehehehe..YM!!! u spoiling me!!!! but actually..aku nak tergelak..it's not bcoz aku nak revenge or ape..aku proud..aku proud beliau tau aku skarang dengan sapa...and he said aku bahagea dengan anep..YES I DO!!!! aku bahagea dengan anep sesangat... so what? and ko pon bahagea jugak kan? and ko lagi bahagea dari aku,kan?? so fuck off... ape ko nak lagi dari aku? motif ko still nak bkawan dengan aku?takde motif kan so blah lah...i dont need you at all... but then i realized that,coz of him,aku and anep dipertemukan sehingga jadi mcmnie... thanks to him?shud i? no need kot..aku percaya jodoh...dengan sesapa pon jodoh aku,aku bersyukur. tuhan jodohkan aku n anep,aku bersyukur sesangat....tapi ape pon, i admit,AKU BAHAGEA DENGAN ANEP....
- Sunday, 31 May 2009
cepat btol mase berlalu..it's time for me to go home.... kali nie aku tidoq dalam pelukan anep...bahageanyaaaa.....tapi aku bangun dulu dari dea.. and lagi skali, aku tengok dea time tidow...the same question depan dea...aku ade maen conteng2 atas dada dea... aku conteng" emi love anep,emi sayang anep...u always be mine..." i touch ur lips,ur eyes,ur ears,ur hair,ur face lah senang cita.... u r mine anep..u r mine..please dont leave me...please..please dont leave me....aku agak pelik ngn diri aku,why...aku agak nak menitis air mata,if aku tenung dea....aku sendiri tatau ape yg tersirat or terpendam dalam hati aku yg buat hati aku sebak bile pandang anep...soalan yg aku sendiri tatau nak jawab...then the same thing happen again...got FUCKING YM from him..motif..???? gi mampos!!! then kitorang pi makan... zai pon nak amek aku dah....then balik bilik dea amek barang..then he grab me,he kissed me...hug me tightly... gosh!!! i wont go!!!pls gimme a chances to be with him again....i want him be with me...forever.... kinda sad but aku tahan..aku taknak buat depan dea...dea pon taknak tgok aku menanges...so pretend like nothing happen...
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gosh!!! how to explain.... u mean everything...u mean everything to me..for now,tomorrow and forever.... no words can describe how much i love him,how much i need him...terribly want u...but im scared... aku takut nak facing menda2 akan datang... future tuh boleh jadi future yg sangat bagus or disebaliknya... day by day,aku try untuk aku trima,how to manage myself to facing benda2 akan datang...especially if benda tuh bad things...just like he said, we had to standby... ape yg berlaku..kite kene trima seadanya.....aku tersangat bahagea sampai aku takut....aku tatau nak nak conclude cmana rasa takut tuh... aku mengaku,aku agak bersungguh dalam bab2 berchenta..aku terlalu sayangkan orang yg aku sayang lebeh dari diri aku sendiri...i admit that dari sulu lagi....so , aku terlalu sayangkan anep..sedalam2 hati aku.. deep inside my heart, i love you.... gosh!!! bnyak gile aku merepek... nak tidoq..by the way... enjoy my lyrics...hahahaaha.. ( baru je lepas dengaq lagu nie kat radio
So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
Did they get you to trade
Your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
Did you exchange
A walk on part in the war,
For a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
Did they get you to trade
Your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
Did you exchange
A walk on part in the war,
For a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.
( song by: pink floyd-wish you were here)
♥
** let it be my secret..
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looking at u anep.. i love this picture so much...
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