:: today, 28th May 2009 ::

how to explain....btw, today aku n anep genap sebulan.... tapi sayang aku kat dea mcm dah bertahun2..hahahah aku gatai...( nie aku type time kat opis)

umm...agak tadak mood... aku blurr..sedeh kot...speechless..well, td aku duk lipat baju...duk pilih baju mana nak bawak for my "holiday" with anep... then suddenly dea msg aku dea kata if nak bitau satu bende aku marah tak...so then aku cakap benda apa? dea kata if yg nak tumpang tidoq umah dea tuh pompuan cmana?seriously,aku trus tatau nak pk apa dah...aku trus simpan bebaju aku...aku just cakap ikut suka ko anep..aku blurr gile..aku trus menanges...sedeh sesangat...ekceli dea gurau..lagi aku sedeh...aku trime gurau laen tp td aku tatau nape aku takleh nak trima...sebab aku td bebetul tgh excited..excited sgt nak jumpa dea,nak hug dea suma bagai..

then dea duk pujuk aku suma sampai sanggup nak mai gombak...hahaha..mai pon bukan dea tau umah aku kat mana...sabaq je lah ngn anep aku nie....dea on YM smalam...coz nak pujuk aku..tau pon nak pujuk...kekekeke..ye ar..sape tak marah dea kata camtuh..orang tgah syok2...dea dok kata mcm tuh... nak kene geget nie dea nie sebab notty sangat2!!

anep, aku rendu ko sesangat....see you on saturday... ♥

:: not in a the good mood ::

arinie aku agak takde mood kot...cecelik mate je dah takde mood... tah...aku mimpi bende yg tak patot kot...fuck lew!! aku ase cam nak pi hospital,suruh doktor cuci part2 otak aku yg kene cuci.. aku boring lah... aku boring mengadap mimpi orang yg tak patot... sumpah sangat babi!!! fuck!!!!

:: excited ::

ngeeee... smalam when aku lepak ngn zai,aku burak ngn dea pasal aku excited nak balik kampung dea.. but then she said,kene cancelled coz takde bilik... aku mcm...ha!!! seyes!!! ekceli bukan dissapoint pasal tak dpt pi... otak aku dah ade 2nd plan ekceli.... ngeeeeee...plan nie harus di plan sebaik mungkin so aku minta tolong zai... help me for my 2nd plan.. aku nak stay tidoq umah anep... coz arituh anep pon ajak aku tidoq sana coz bob balik kampung...kebetulan aku ikut zai balik kampung..so i choose to ikut zai coz aku dah plan with zai dulu..then benda dah tak jadi,so aku truskan ke 2nd plan aku lew...tralalalalala.... cucuk bulan lew aku... aku pon ekceli malas nak duk umah..tkde ape pon...so aku dah bitau anep bout "my holiday" with him...ngeeeee...anepp hoiii.... aku nak pi leuk hang... mau tidoq didlam dakapan hang!!!!! hahahahahha!!! aku rendu dekat dea...

:: continue... "mad" ::

hehehe... mad!!! he mad with me.... api api.... semalam gamagen aku nie marah... marah pasal aku layan anip member dea... jeles aku dengan anip... sayang...sayang...ko buat aku btambah sayang sangat dekat ko..sayang sangat...laen kali jgn bagi aku dekat dengan anip lagi...yea? dea nak suka aku ke hape,aku tak mau tau,itu dea punya pasal... yg aku tau aku takkan suka kat dea,takkan sesenyap suka dekat dea ke hapa...ok...aku milik ko.. sayang sungguh ko kat aku yea anep... aku nampak ko laen since this 2 days kite lepak ngn anip.. bile aku cakap ngn dea ko mesti ade potong aku cakap sampai aku kompius nak jawab mane satu... hope ko tak pikir bukan2 yea sayang..aku taknak pasal hal nie aku n ko jadi laen,n ko ngn dea nye frenship jadi laen... au tak mintak ko percaye aku 100% but as long ko percaye yg aku milik ko its enuff... aku sayang ko sangat and hati aku tak pernah terdetik nak suke dekat sesape coz aku tau aku dengan sape skang..orang laen ade suka aku ke hape itu dorang punya pasal... aku pon tak nak kat dorang... aku sayang ko sangat2 anep..aku tak nak dengan orang laen..pls jage aku elok2..and mcm tuh gak sebalik nye..aku tak nak ko dengan orang laen..aku nak jage ko sebab ko milik aku.. aku pon agak jeles jugak sumtimes..aku taknak n takut orang akn tersuka dekat ko..paling afdal pon ko akan suka orang laen... so pls..for us..for our relationship yea sayang..

MAKAM FEST!!!!! hahahaha..hope kita pi noo sayang... at lis ko teman kan aku pi sana..seyes aku tingin nak pi... ko kata nak pi gak smalam aku asa lega sikit.....ngeee... jum yea sayang...jummm...

:: mad ::

he mad with me.....

:: us ::

:: me n you ::

:: fly..and fly... ::

yesterday on 22 May, after back from work...aku direct gi umah anep... oyeh!!!! aku jumpe anep lagi.... dea ar ajak aku pi sana... aku pon rendu nak jumpe dea last jumpe pon last rabu kat shareezma coz dea bagi broadband aku... errr... rabu tuh kan... ade orang trase n kecik hati coz aku tak bercakap dengan dea... hehehe...anep anep.... aku pon tatau pasaipa time tuh mcm sunyi sangat.. mcm takde idea ape...aku tgok ko mcm lost idea aku pon tatau nak watpe...apepon sorry yea sayang sebab tak cakap ngn ko...aku sayang ko sangat2... aku taknak wat mcmtuh lagi..so, back to yesterday story.... hahahaha!!! we had finish our mission incomplete last day.... hahahha banyak gelak!!! tak seyes!! klakaq!!! pehtu penat!! aku sampai pening kepala truih tidoq anep!!! hehehehe... tp aku smalam tidoq lena di dalam dakapan mu.. ngeee... aku suka sesangat... aku tidoq ko peluk aku n aku peluk ko... WHEN THIS MOMENT NAK ADA LAGI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aku nak peluk ko lagi.. aku tak penah puas nak peluk n geget ko...oyeh!!! smalam aku dapat geget badan ko... tatau lew lelebam ke tak..kalau lebam agi bagus kan... ade gak kenangan aku kat situ... aku geram ngn ko... tuh aku geget2 badan ko... seriously aku tak penah puas pelok ko... aku tak mau lepaih...tp time is running so fast... and ase sekejap je aku dpt peluk ko... hopefully next time aku dapat peluk ko lagi... btw, talk bout smalam, malam td aku tertido when we talk bout ko marah pasal aku mencarut... aku minta maap coz aku banyak mencarut..kadang2 aku terkeluwa ayat2 tuh.. tapi honestly aku tak salahkan ko marah aku,coz aku tau,ko marah bersebab n taknak aku buat mcmtuh lagi...and seriously aku takut tgok ko marah... so next time aku tak nak bagi ko marah lagi.. aku minta maaf yea sayang... ko memang patot tegoq juga ape yg tak elok..sebab orang mungkin tak penah tegoq aku...ko dah banyak kali tegoq tp aku kdg2 terlupa...so aku minta maaf yea... taknak ko memarah lagi aku takut~

sayang!!! thanx for ur t shirt... huwaa... smalam aku tidoq pakai baju ko!! trase sikit tidoq ngn ko...ehehehehe... aku nak bawak pi kampung zai... aku jauh nnti aku mesti rendu gila kat ko...nnti aku bagi balik yea sayang...

:: us ::

♥

:: aku jahat.... ::

anep...sorry for my fucking joke..i didnt mean to did it to you...seriously aku takut sangat tadi... aku trase mcm almost hilang ko and hilang ase sayang ko dekat aku... nape aku jahat sangat anep...nape aku buat ko mcmnie???aku minta maaf yea sayang....aku mintak maaf sangat2 dengan ape yg aku buat...aku janji aku tak buat lagi mcm tuh...aku bebetul sayang dekat ko anep..terlalu sayang..ko pon kata ko nampak aku sayang ko mcmana...btapa sayang nye aku dekat ko... it's impossible utnuk aku tiba2 nak benci n tak sayang ko anep....if aku gila pon,even mulut aku cakap mcmtuh,tp hati aku takkan tipu yg aku sayangkan ko... Demi Allah aku bebetul sayangkan ko anep..pls....aku taknak ilang ko and aku tak sanggup ilang orang yang aku paling sayang skarang...kite dah promise kite akan jage relationship kite sesame kan sayang?jgn tinggalkan aku and tolong,jgn tinggalkan aku.. aku sayang ko sangat2...terlalu sayang kan ko...

:: .......... ::

gagaga...lamo den tak nulih sini haaaa.... tired+bored=wenggg~ arinie panaih gila... aku baru balik lunch...td pi post opis gi hantar topi pdot then card mother's day untuk mak anep... wendu gila kat anep.. td aku call dea nak minta number dea tak angkat..tatau lew dea dah bangkit ke belom... anep anep...anepp..."I did three things today; miss you, miss you, and miss you."  hahaahha... hari2 aku rendu kat anep..rendu sesangat.... btw today he got no credit to sms me...dea pon tak brape nak cukop...so,takpe lew... kene bertahan lew seketika....semalam dpt jumpe dea coz semalam dea amek broadband aku...

dapat gak tgok muka dea smalam...arinie dea kata nak hantaq balik broadband tatau lew dea mai ke dak....kalau hantaq boleh aku tgok dea lagi...ngeeeee...mengambil kesempatan ke atas diri mu sayang oiiii.....tatau nak type ape lagi..nnti lew tunggu balik umah nnti baru aku update blog aku dengan lebeh lanjut...

:: today i am happy for tomorrow ::

yeah!!! can't wait for tomorrow morning.... i had set a date with anep tomorrow morning...aku nak datag umah dea...kinda miss him a lot lorrr... before nie aku igt taknak jumpe dea for a week..but i can't!!!! aku sangat rendu kat dea ouh... so then smalam aku ckp dengan dea boleh aku dtg ari ahad...he said,boleh2!!! hahahaha... aku nak jumpe dea,nak pelok dea,nak kiss dea just like what we did last week... i felt damn happy while im with him.... i can staring at him.... again!!!! oyehhh!!!! hehehehe... aku try curi time to be with him... anything.... just to be with him... aku sayang dea,and aku tak sanggup kot takde dea in my daily life...

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing 
Watch you smile while you are sleeping 
While you're far away and dreaming 
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender 
I could stay lost in this moment forever 
Well, every moment spent with you 
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes 
I don't wanna fall asleep 
'Cause I'd miss you, baby 
And I don't wanna miss a thing 
'Cause even when I dream of you 
The sweetest dream would never do 
I'd still miss you, baby 
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you 
Feeling your heart beating 
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming 
Wondering if it's me you're seeing 
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together 
And I just wanna stay with you 
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes 
I don't wanna fall asleep 
'Cause I'd miss you, baby 
And I don't wanna miss a thing 
'Cause even when I dream of you 
The sweetest dream would never do 
I'd still miss you, baby 
And I don't wanna miss a thing 
I don't wanna miss one smile 
I don't wanna miss one kiss

Well, I just wanna be with you 
Right here with you, just like this 
I just wanna hold you close 
Feel your heart so close to mine 
And just stay here in this moment 
For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes 
Don't wanna fall asleep 
'Cause I'd miss you, baby 
And I don't wanna miss a thing 
'Cause even when I dream of you 
The sweetest dream would never do 
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby 
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes 
I don't wanna fall asleep 
'Cause I'd miss you, baby 
And I don't wanna miss a thing 
'Cause even when I dream of you 
The sweetest dream would never do 
I'd still miss you, baby 
And I don't wanna miss a thing 
Don't wanna close my eyes 
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah 
I don't wanna miss a thing 
I don't wanna miss a thing 

yeah,i dont wanna miss a thing.... i need u so badly... i need you.. i need you, and i need u so much...please don't leave me, coz i need u every second breath in my life... for now,thank for being with me,for every time... i can't imagine my life without u,it become so bad...i know,im sounds like damn crazy but... that's what i am..im truely love with you... i wont let you go...cant' wait to meet u by tomorrow...wait for me..im coming to be with u.....

:: some story to share ::

We've talked for hours until we've looked at the clock and in amazement cannot believe where the time went. He's made me laugh so hard the tears just poor down my face, and my stomach hurts. I start sentences, and he finishes them, and vice versa. He knows my every thought, my feelings...my fears. He's been my best friend for the past few years, and even though I've tried to hide my feelings from him, he's always known somehow. 

We live so far apart from each other, but when I sit alone and think of him which is often, I can feel him. I know when he's sad, and I know when something makes him laugh. 

I save inside of myself all this love that I want to give only to him...my best friend, and I wonder if fate or destiny or the man above will someday bring us together. He's the man I can see myself growing old with. The man that I can reach across a table and hold his hand, and without a single word being spoken, can tell him what my heart is feeling.I want him to see my tenderness and my soul, and I want only him to be the keeper of it all. He is my best friend and I love him with all of my heart.

:: deep inside my heart, u are there... ::

"It was by CHANCE that you met , By CHOICE you became friends , But by FATE you became soulmates..."

taken by: 

My Best Friend and Lover!

by AngelBaby

jiwang pon jiwang lah mampos situ... bukan aku jiwang ngn orang pon...aku jiwang dengan laki aku jugak...btw,semalam 14 May 2009, hehehe..anep dtg jumpe aku...dea kat nak mai gombak.. i am damn excited semalam coz dea cakap nak jumpe aku..igt dea memaen...pagi tuh around 6am aku terjaga,aku trus msg dea...pap pap pap,dea kate nak mai gombak...sumpah aku suka gila!!!aku tak sabaq nak balik kheja..so aku wat kheja pon lelaju...then aku bitau zai bout anep nak dtg,zai kate nak tolong hantaq aku suma n amek dea mai lepak gombak...tah tatau nak say thank mcmana dekat zai,dea banyak tolong aku exspecially bila aku dengan anep...bila aku cakap dea kate takde pape lah,nak tgok kawan dea bahagea lah apa suma...wuteva pon for zai thank a lot...ko banyak tolong aku...so then she drop us kat shareezma...lelepak suma makan ngn dea,then zai sampai lepak together..hahahaha smalam zai dok cita hal aku..malo0o aku...tapi ok kot..at least anep dapat tau aku cmana,buruk aku cmana...salah satu dari topik smalam,hahahaha..let me explaen here..aku memang jenis susah nak buat explaination..aku tak pandai bercakap directly..aku tak pandai berterus terang directly..or ape lew...aku banyak bercakap dalam hati aku..means,aku explain it by my heart...tp nobody know kan...care terbaek,aku suke menaip mcmnie,by sms..seriously aku pon tatau nape..aku sorang penyegan kot...hahahaha cam pundek je...maybe depan anep aku agak sukar lah nak biatu dea yg aku sayang dea,or ape2 words yang aku try sampaikan dekat dea...tp dalam hati aku banyak mende nak bitau...hehehe....soorry yea sayang...aku tatau nie kelemahan aku ke ape... tp aku memang suka kot menaip mcmnie,so aku boleh bace balik ape yg aku explain,ape yg penah ade dalam hati aku,kadang2 buat aku senyum balik tgok ape yg aku tulis...ape yang zai bitau kat anep smalam sumanya btol... hope dea boleh trime sume baek buruk aku. banyak lagi baik buruk aku nnti dea akan tahu...hehehehe..akukan jahat,degil,nakal....

btw,smalamkan aku dapat hug anep...ngeeeeeee......aku minta nak hug dea...then he kiss me and i kiss him back...rendu sesangat..curik chances nak kiss dea lelaju....hahahaha...then aku curik pelok dea..ngaaaa...kepak aku mengembang....smalam hantar dea balik zai hantarkan..thank u zai... kan best time tuh ade doremon(doremon lagi) so aku leh mintak kat dea jam berhenti masa...then bile dah benti bagi aku pluang untuk hug dea lelame...then kissing dea...aneppppp...nak kiss ko...bile lagi aku nak dpt kiss anep aku nie...huwaaaa.... then waktu balik smalam aku dengaq radio kuwa lagu by Extreme- more than words... i dedicated that song for you sayang...ngeeee...

seriously,makin lame makin aku bertambah sayang kat dea... only God know how much i love him now...n now...and forever...i wish to be with him until my last breath...aku nak jaga dea,tgok dea,everything until my last breath..i pray for that... he said,kita sesama jaga relationship kita,insyaAllah kekal..(message item ke-10,12:35:16pm,150509) insyaAllah anep... if kite jage sesama,know each other,respect each other,insyaAllah aku n ko akan kekal...may God bless our realtionship forever... aku sayang sangat dekat anep...sayang sangat2... i love u so much mohd hanief harun....

:: lyric for today ::

Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thingTo Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words 
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words 
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
You make it easy 
It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words 
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
(I love you) I love you

:: ngeeee ::

hari ke-3, merendu beliaw separuh masa..hahaha..pasaipa?pasai semalam aku jumpe dea.... ngaaa...thanx to zai...kalau ko tak pi,tadak aku dpt jumpadea zai oiii...smalam nabila ajak kitorang pi lepak Nz... pundek ar kene bahan kaw2 punye ngn dorang... sabaq je lah.. hahahaha... aku rendu dea smalam..nak burak pon tak dapat...nak tgok dea pon tak dapat..lepas nie kene bahan je...anepppp.... rendu nyeeeee....kalau depa tak bahan kita dah lame aku pandang ko anep....dorang jahat kene kan kita.... hehehehe....wendu kat mulot muncung aku sorang nie....

:: again ::

hari ke-3,lagi merendu..aihhhh....apa boleh buat... bukan jauh mana pon nak jumpa dea... aneppp... rendu sungguh kat hanggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!! huwaaaa..... tatau lahh bila nak pi jumpe dea lagi.. harinie.... dea tak pi class!!!!!! memang dea ngntuk sungguh kot arinie..slalu aku kejut sat ja dea boleh angkt..neh berkali2 aku call,pehtu igt dah sampai class ke hape,kul 12 lebeh msg aku rupe nye dea tertidoq...anep..anep... ko dok mimpi maria ozawa ke sampai liat gila nak bangun nieee...haaaa!!!! aku tenyeh muka ngn pewot ko kang baru tau... next week pegi yea sayang.... boring lew arinie kat opis... aku duk online ja lah..bukan aku leh buat apa.. doremonnnnn.... wujud lah kooo weiiii....  

:: what to do.... ::

2 hari tak jumpe dea....bile nak jumpe anep lagi.... bulan nie agak problem sikit..aku banyak pakai duit..sebab banyak bende nak cover... so agak kurang nak melepak lew...aihhh...anep anep...rendu nye kat ko...aku tatau nak buat apa lagi...tatau cmane nak ilang ase rendu dekat ko... hari2 pon kite msg,makin kuat rendu aku kat ko... terbayang muka ko anep oii....aihh...sakit sungguh aku nie......kan baguih kalau aku ade sekoq doremon so aku akan minta dekat dea"doremon boleh tak awak keluarkan saye satu pintu suka hati,saye nak pegi jumpe anep...tp tunggu malam lew time dea tidoq,sebab saye nak bisik kat telinga dea,yang saye saaaayyyaaannggg sangat dekat dea,then saye nak kiss dea time dea tidoq,sebab time tuh kan mulut dea tengah muncung...pehtu saye nak peluk dea kejap...boleh tak doremon...." sumpah gile aku nie agaknye...rendu gile wohh kat dea... aku sampai tatau nak buat cmana lagi dah nie... kang aku lari pi kat dea baru tau...rendu sesangat..rendu...rendu...rendu...

: answer for your question sayang ::

hahaha... anep anep... ko nak tau kan nape aku tenung muke ko time ko maen guitar depan aku that day.... here is the answer...ngeee...

1. you look so sweet....
2. aku actually berdepan dengan orang yg aku sayang..
3. ko maen guitar depan aku
4. ko handsome bagi aku
5. ur muncung lips!!!! arghhhh!!!
6. believe or not,u r mine
7. u melt my heart..ngeee
8. the way u smile....
   
9. janggut ko menawan hati aku...
10. u..u...u...u...u r mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pueh ati anda? hehehe... aku sayang ko anep...sayang ko selamanya...

:: suddenly... ::

aku teringat bapak aku pernah maen satu lagu omputeh... by Righteous Brothers-unchained melody (lagu zaman bila).......

Oh, my love, my darling,
I've hungered for your touch a long, lonely time,
Time goes by so slowly and time can do so much.
Are you still mine?
I need your love, I need your love, God speed your love to me.

Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea
To the open arms of the sea
Lonely rivers sigh, 'Wait for me, wait for me'
'I'll be coming home, wait for me!'

Are you still mine?
I need your love, I need your love, God speed your love to me

Abah...abah... thanx maen lagu nie...kekekeke.... u remind me for him... ngeeeee....

:: present...whole day...together...you&me.... ::

• ngeeee... last khamis kot,anep bagi aku gelang... ngaaaaa...thank u sayang... aku appriciate sangat2 dapat gelang dari ko...aku pakai 24/7... kecuali mandi...takut kene air kang reput plak dah...putus ke hape... kang menanges tak berlagu aku kang... aku dpt time pi culik dea nak bawak pi NZ.. aku tgah drive skali dea hulur gelang...(bunga,,bunga) hahahaha...thank u thank u sayang for ur present..aku suka sangat2... aku pon tatau nak bagi apa kat ko anep... nnti bila aku ada duit aku bagi kat ang nooo..

from him...

• yesterday,9th May 2009... aku kuwa dating ngn anep...hehehehe...sunuk sunuk...and serunuk...(ade bende yg sangat serunuk tp beliau tak kasi boh cita kat sini..makanya,aku kene hide keserunukkan aku tuh) tak sangke...tak sangke.... thank again sayang....for "that moment we had been together..even for a while... but sangat bermakna bagi aku,and aku percaya ko betul2 milik aku....hikhikhik....kitorang pi dating kat mid valley,pi tengok wayang suma....tapi dea duk ngadu sakit kaki..banyak berjalan...sorry bawak ko jalan jauh...

• harinie agak rendu ouhhh kat dea...rendu sangat..walhal baru je smalam lepas rendu... agak2 dea ingat dak kat aku?makin lame makin bertambah sayang aku kat dea...membuak2 aku sayang kat dea...aku hope sayang aku nie berterusan sampai bila2...aku taknak perasaan nie terputus... aku tak sanggup ouhh hilang dea...i need him,for every second i breath.... if dea takde aku ase cam,tak complete daily life aku...sebab aku dah biase ade dea...then when suddenly he disappear, aku maybe agak blurr kejap kot... aku sungguh sayang dea... i always pray for our relationship...semoga Allah berkat relationship aku dengan dea,and if betul jodoh aku dengan dea,tunjukkan lah suatu hari nnti yg dea betul2 milik aku... aku cume ade dea yg jadi teman hidup aku..aku tadak sapa dah melaenkan bestfriend aku zai... kalau aku ilang anep one day nnti if takde jodoh,mungkin aku nak sendirian kot...aku taknak pikir bab2 nie lagi....tp aku tak wish mende tuh jadi... so,aku nak jaga relationship aku sekarang sebaik mungkin...aku taknak dea jemu dengan aku,jemu dengan sikap aku...i have to behave myself...aku tak nak dea pergi just because mende datang dari diri aku...aku taknak..taknak dan taknak...dea kebahageaan aku sekarang...ilang dea,ilang sume kebahageaan aku...everytime im thinking of him..he meant everything to me now...tomorrow...forever... aku percaye dea,and hope dea percaye dengan aku...aku taknak ade ape2 rahsia dengan dea... buat ape aku nak berahsia dengan orang yg aku sayang... and tak ade sebab untuk aku nak tipu dea...aku sayang kat dea..chenta btol dekat dea....sorry,kinda jiwang but ini yg tertera dalam hati aku...if lah,dea bukan milik aku,aku nak dea tau,he still be with me...in my heart...i put him deep into my heart... aku takkan lupe aku kenal dea,aku kawan dengan dea suma...aku takkan lupa...i wont forget you, MOHD HANIEF HARUN...

:: lyric for today ::

The Cranberries - Dreams

Oh, my life is changing everyday,

In every possible way.

And oh, my dreams, it's never quite as it seems,

Never quite as it seems.

I know I've felt like this before, but now I'm feeling it even more,

Because it came from you.

And then I open up and see the person falling here is me,

A different way to be.

I want more impossible to ignore,

Impossible to ignore.

And they'll come true, impossible not to do,

Impossible not to do.

And now I tell you openly, you have my heart so don't hurt me.

You're what I couldn't find.

A totally amazing mind, so understanding and so kind;

You're everything to me.

Oh, my life,

Is changing every day,

In every possible way.

And oh, my dreams,

It's never quite as it seems,

'Cause you're a dream to me,

Dream to me.

:: porn video from anep :P ::

:: LOL ::

hahahaha... anep anep... aku still takleh ilang gelak pasal semalam...aduhai... pasal kawan ko wan busuk tuh... aduhai... aku takkan lupa sampai bile2 kes smalam..sangat melawakkan...since dea dtg sampai nak balik aku nak tergelak..tp aku tahan gegilew punye..time ko panggil dea then dea amek kerusi,ko dah ckp"ah sudah dea amek kusi plak dah"..hjahahahahah.. skali dea punye crite haaa tuh dea..mau dekat sejam lew.. aku tatau nak wat ape,aku maen handphone anep... curik gambaq dea...then paling aku tatahan skali,anep minta pinjam msg...rupenye dea msg kat bob...minta tolong msg si wan busuk nie balik....dea tunjuk kat aku msg tuh,sumpah mengeletek perot aku..aku tahan je...skali wan busuk tuh dpt 1 call..dari bob...  hahahahha...anep boleh blakon agi wat tatau pape..aku dalam hati dah terkekeh2 mcm sial...at last wan busuk tuh blah... hahahahha aku terus gelak depan anep...aihhhh..anep anep...sayang aku sorang nie... slalu buat aku gelak... hahahaha...aduhai...aku lupe nak say thanx kat dea for teman aku smalam,pi beli barang,makan and teman aku balik... sorry tak kiss ko balik...gagagagaga.... anep,aku sayang ko sangat2.... then kan aku suke if ko start cite bout future... ye lew... coz i thought ko tak akan pikir bab2 tuh... aku pon sometimes pk gak bab2 tuh..kalau aku time umoq belasan tahun tuh memang aku takkan pikir kot..mungkin sebab aku pon umoq dah menaek,jadi aku dah start pikir2 hal nie... memang aku n anep still baru but...takkan nak tunggu lama baru nak pikir hal nie kan...orang laen dah branak pinak dah pon...hahahaha...its ok..aku slow2 try pertahankan realationship aku dengan anep... hope relationship aku n dea kekal lah.. aku pon dah taknak berchenta dengan sesape lagi..hope anep is the last person dengan aku... thank you anep,for loving me....

It's hard for me to say the things 
I want to say sometimes 
There's no one here but you and me 
And that broken old street light 
Lock the doors 
We'll leave the world outside 
All I've got to give to you 
Are these five words when I 


Thank you for loving me 
For being my eyes 
When I couldn't see 
For parting my lips 
When I couldn't breathe 
Thank you for loving me 
Thank you for loving me 

I never knew I had a dream 
Until that dream was you 
When I look into your eyes 
The sky's a different blue 
Cross my heart 
I wear no disguise 
If I tried, you'd make believe 
That you believed my lies 


Thank you for loving me 
For being my eyes 
When I couldn't see 
For parting my lips 
When I couldn't breathe 
Thank you for loving me 

You pick me up when I fall down 
You ring the bell before they count me out 
If I was drowning you would part the sea 
And risk your own life to rescue me 


Lock the doors 
We'll leave the world outside 
All I've got to give to you 
Are these five words when I 


Thank you for loving me 
For being my eyes 
When I couldn't see 
You parted my lips 
When I couldn't breathe 
Thank you for loving me 

When I couldn't fly 
Oh, you gave me wings 
You parted my lips 
When I couldn't breathe 
Thank you for loving me

( lyric by:- jon bon jovi-thank you for loving me )

:: damn ::

serioushit... aku agak bengang,amarah,kecik hati suma ade ar... sume pasal aku tak dpt kereta kancil... i was plan for my date with anep... fuck... last2 kakak aku ckp kereta tak boleh renew roadtax,ade summons lah wuteva shit lah... terus mood aku jadi tak ok... aku balik smlam tgok kereta takde..dorang bawak balik kereta... pukimak ar tak kasi cakap tak kasik... aku sakit ati gile ngn abang ipaq aku.. macam sial prangai... aku nak pinjam 1 hari je.. bukan banyak hari... kedekut gile babi taik hanjeng btol!!! im kinda sad... coz i was planned to date with anep for the whole day... sebab if naek public transport cam....erhhhh.. i want a lil privacy with anep... just a while...damn damn.... aku sangat frust... frust gilew.... but anep kate takpe lew naek je train... yea anep,aku tak kisah nak naik tren,but i want that "privacy"... sial!!!! sial!!!! sumpah aku sakit hati....sorry anep... plan aku tak jadi... im sodamn  dissapointed...

:: anep ::

care ko msg cam garang je bunyi..aku sampai tatau nak cakap apa...sound lah like garang...toksah dok tanya garang mcmana... aku sayangkan ko.. sayang ko sesangat

:: :( ::

need him so bad...

:: our horoscope for today ::

me:-

You're in an easy-going, dreamy mood today, so postpone unimportant chores, relax and watch the world pass by. You could also find a simple answer to a recent problem if you let your intuition guide you. So listen to your heart and not your head. You are instinctively in tune with others now and find it easy to express your feelings - and to give them feedback and support. Your sympathy could be in great demand.

him:-

Close relationships of every kind, especially long-term ties with family or old friends, should be a real source of contentment now. You are able to communicate the way you feel about a certain issue and can bring about some changes that are overdue. The last piece of a jigsaw could slot into place if you are open and direct. Do not be afraid to ask a question - or to answer someone else's.

:: termenung ::

*mengeluh* *mengeluh* tired...tired... mau balik... i was thinking,bile nak jumpe anep lagi... haih.. nak tunggu ari cuti mcm laaammmmbaaaattttt je...takpe..sabaq itu separuh daripada iman..gagagga...at least nnti jumpe,bleh pelok kekuat..kan kan kan...lagipon aku takut nk jumpe dea sangat..dea study..banyak bende dea nak kene focus..aku taknak pasal aku,sume bende penting dea terganggu.. nnti abeh sume benda tak jadi... rendu gile kat dea... walhal baru je jumpe smalam... dah 1 week aku ngn dea..  hehehe..makin lame makin kuat wohhh aku sayang anep... tim kai ahhh(kenapa)... sebabnye aku betul2 sayang dea lah...waktu memule dulu aku mcm tak caye,aku ngn dea..now and now..aku percaya..anep btol2 sayang kat aku....  im still thinking bout what had happen yesterday...ho leng ahhhh( bestnyaaa)   aku takkan lupe moment smalam...seyes... weiii..takde sape ke yg boleh buat remote control mcm cite "click" tuh.. aku just nak function "pause" je...means, aku nak "pause" time untuk moment aku dengan anep...itu je..laen function aku takmo.... hati aku berbunge2 gile... hahahha..minah jiwang btoi... siauuu(gila)... kalau semalam aku ade remote control tuh,aku nak "pause" time dea kiss aku banyak kali,bagi aku time untuk buat balik the same thing like he did...he said,kate nak kiss lips... wai se mo??(mengapa) semalam tak brape nak private...zai n ejop ade... if aku nak kiss lips dea pon,aku nak ade aku and dea saje... and aku nak moment tuh aku n dea aje yg tau... agak2 how ek if aku kiss lips dea? aku ase dah boleh dah if aku jadi roket,tak gune pakai sayap agi dah...waste time hahahahaha.... lagi laju dari syed muzaffar nye roket..errr...dea pakai roket ke? wo pu che tau lorrr (saye pon tatau)   ape pon,moment tuh aku akan buat 1 day dengan anep..ngaaaaaa...aku gatal!!! ala,gatal pon dengan sape aje... dengan beliau je,bukan dengan orang laen... aneeepppp!!! 

:: bos takde,so... ::

keje banyak tp aku tak buat pong... lantak lew..esok2 pon boleh... panas gila arinie... aku tak jadi kluwa..kang abeh berpeluh aku lagipon zai takde.. eish...boring nyee.... nasib baek line internet arinie ok..kalau tak,ase mcm nak bunuh je computer nie..hehehe.

selase,rabu,khamis,jumaat...aduhaiiii..boss babi oi,cepat lew sign cheque aku nak gaji lew vavik!!!kang ade gak yg aku sign sendiri cheque tuh kang!! haram J btol lew...

:: song for today ::

aku duk update blog aku nie,suddenly kluwa lagu nie kat radio..

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words 

( song by: Extreme-More Than Words )

:: perfume,meet love ::

:: dreaming while working ::

"I adore him. I have never been so 

happy. I have real love."

taken:- Princess of Wales Diana

1961-1997, Wife of Charles, Prince of Wales

 otak aku macam2 pikir.. angau ade,gila ade,sume serba ade ar... emi emi... btw,smalam aku kuwa minum with zai and ejop..and aku bawak anep...ALHAMDULILLAH,THANK YOU MONDAY, 4th MAY 2009, for gimme a chance to meet anep...AGAIN!!!! aku selalu cari peluang untuk aku jumpe d

engan dea... and every chances yg aku cri tue tak penah sia2...i think smalam hari yang paling bermakna kot... trbang..i'm flying without wing.... how to mention here, what had happened last night between me and him... weng!!weng!! weng!!!  aku dapat pegang tangan anep,baring kat anep,dpt kiss banyak dari anep,dapat kiss anep lagi,anep hug aku.... EMI!!!! U R DAMN CRAZY!!!! sumpah aku mcm nak jerit....sebab aku terlalu happy...nobody know how happy i am!! aku sampai tak sedar mase berjalan or wuteva... while im with him... diri aku sangat di sayangi... zai ade msg aku smalam,she said,aku nampak sangat happy skarang than before...before nie aku asek menanges,life pon tak brape nak btol,blur2,etc...she said,she thank to anep for bring back my happy life...zai tahu sume hari2 yg aku hadapi before...btw,thanx to zai too coz she always here be with me... love u babe..hahaha...aku mengaku,memang aku tersangat happy...if aku sedeh and menanges pon,mebi coz aku terlalu happy...actually pagi td pon aku...errrr...nevermind... 

if God give me 1 miracle chance for me,right now,i wish i can go meet him,look at him,and say "anep,to telling u the truth,im really fall in love with you..i wish to be with u forever...if God take me f

rom you,i want u to know,im always there be with you....forever..." tapi mane leh dpt chance mcm tuh.. kene cari se

ndiri lew..hehehe... wut else to say here...too much things to type..hahaha..kang jadi satu novel kat sini...aku hope my

 "plan" menjadi...just for me and anep... and hope that "plan" will be our precious moment forever...actually,aku

 pon tak plan abeh pon "plan" nie.. takut tak menjadi.. dont care lah,as long i'll be with him... it's more than enou

gh..more than enough!!!  gotta go...