Thursday, April 30, 2009

:: some online story to share ::

It all began with a friendship
Gerard Way has been my friend for some time, but I want to be more. Is it so much to ask to be with the person that you love? I want to tell him that I feel this way, but I love him too much to ruin his relationship with Callista. I haven’t the strength in me to destroy what he has with her, unless…he by some miracle feels the same way.
“Yo, dude! Frankie! Stop dreaming the show’s about to start!” Gerard called from the edge of the curtain.
“Huh?” I reply.
“You know, the concert. The thing as to why we are here…in New York.” He said to me.
“Oh, yeah. I know. Let’s get out there then.” I say as I grab my guitar from the corner.
We were all on the stage, doing what we love, playing our songs. I glanced at Gerard; he was panting and covered in sweat. I felt like going over there and pouncing on him. I started moving closer to him. As I did he pulled me to him. I couldn’t stop myself, I had to, I kissed him. The fans went wild and strangely Gee kissed me back. For a second I could have sworn that I felt his tongue slip into my mouth. The fans were screaming louder and louder, but I couldn’t hear them, I couldn’t see anything, I could only feel Gerard’s mouth on mine. The kiss only lasted 5 seconds, but it felt like more than that, like someone had hit the slow-mo button. He pulled away and began to sing again. I wanted to go back for more, but I knew I couldn’t, so instead I licked his cheek and went back over to the other end of the stage.
The concert ended and I all I could do was think about that kiss. A hand hit my ass hard. I turned to see that it was Gerard.
“Great concert, eh Frankie?” He said
“Yep the best one yet.” I said back to him blankly. “So Gee about that…”
 “Argh Fuck!” Ray screamed. “The stupid fuckin’ string fuckin’ snapped it’s fuckin’ self in fuckin’ half on my fuckin’ guitar!”
“Come on, we’ll go and get another string.” Bob told him. “Come on Mikey.”
“Why me?” He asked, confused.
“You’re the only one with any money.” He replied back.
The three of them went out into the cold of New York City, leaving only me and Gerard behind…together. Part of me wanted to go after them, but another part told me to stay behind with Gee.
I did the only thing that I could think of to avoid making eye contact with him…put my guitar away. As I was laying it in it’s case Gee came up behind me. He pinned me to the wall and planted a kiss on me. My leg automatically wrapped around Gerard’s waist, to this he didn’t object. I kissed him back, pushing my tongue as far as I could into his mouth. His hands slid up my shirt and I moaned slightly. I turned us so that he was now  against the wall. I felt his hands move to my belt buckle. He began to undo it, but just then…
“I can’t believe that the stupid fuckin’ shop had no fuckin” guitar strings fuckin’ left! What kind of bloody music shop don’t have fuckin’ guitar strings!” Ray screamed as the three came back into the building.
Gerard quickly pushed me to the floor and ran over to the lounge. I was about to yell at him, but Bob appeared around the corner.
“How did it go?” Gerard asked Ray.
“How do you think! The stupid…” Ray begun.
“Ray! Shut up!” Bob yelled as he flopped down onto the lounge next to Gerard.
“All that he could say on the way back was about how the store didn’t have any guitar strings.” Mikey told him.
“Yeah and that’s the G-rated version of that scene.” Bob added.
We all laughed except for Ray.
An hour passed and then it was time for us to all cram back into the tour bus. Gerard sat on the lounge with Bob, while Mikey went to bed and Ray called consumer affairs to complain about the music store. I knew that I had to talk to Gee, but I wasn’t sure what to say.
“What do you mean that I don’t have a case!” Ray screamed into the phone. He was now talking to a lawyer, mind you, he had already called consumer affairs and the department of fair trading.
“I’ve had enough of this idiot and his guitar string. I’m going to bed.” Bob said as he walked to the back of the bus.
“Hang on a sec.” Ray told the lawyer. “Bob this is not stupid, it is a serious fuckin’ issue!”
“What ever!” Bob screamed back.
“Shut the fuck up! I’m tryin’ to sleep!” Mikey shouted from his bunk.
Gerard and I just laughed at this argument.
“The bastard hung up on me!” Ray screamed. “Argh! I’m goin’ to bed.”
Again this left me and Gerard alone.
“Gee, we need to talk…”
“About what?” Gerard asked me.
“Why you kissed me.”
“Which time?”
“Tonight, on stage and back stage when the others went out.” I told him.
“Oh, that.” He said as he walked over to the espresso machine.
“Well?”
“Well what?”
“Why the fuck did you do it?!” I yelled at him.
“Shut up!” Mikey yelled from his bunk.
“I did it on stage for the fans entertainment, you know how much they love that stuff, but I did it backstage because I knew that you wanted it.” Gerard said.
“Did you want it too?” I asked.
“Maybe.”
He kissed me on the cheek and went to the back of the bus.
I laid awake in my bunk all night long. I couldn’t get that kiss out of my mind, apart from that Ray was snoring his fuckin head off. I kept having flash backs and every time I closed my eyes I could only see images of him and Callista.
Next morning I was the first one up. I got no sleep at all. All I could do was think about Gerard and that kiss. Suddenly there was a knock on the door of the bus. I opened it to find Callista standing there with Mikey’s girlfriend Melanie.
“Hey Frankie, is Gerard awake?” Callista asked.
I felt like telling her to fuck off, that Gee was mine, but I just couldn’t ruin things for him.
“No.” I said as I looked back into the bus. “Looks like Mikey’s getting up though.”
“Great.” Callista said as she brushed past me.
I saw her wake up Gerard. He kissed her and pushed her down onto my bunk. I stared at his body, he quickly glanced at me, then back to her. He got up and put a shirt, then went back to kissing her.
“Can we talk?” Melanie asked me.
“Sure.” I said as I stepped out of the bus. “What’s up?”
“Mikey called me last night. He said that he overheard you talking to Gerard about some kiss.”
“Did he? Well, um...”
“Talk to me Frankie, what happened between you and Gerard?”
“Well at the concert yesterday he kissed me. Then backstage he pinned me to the wall and kissed me again. I really like him, but I’m so confused.”
“Oh Frankie, you need to sort this out with him. Especially since he already has a girlfriend.” She told me.
“I tried, but he won’t answer me.”
“Well, this will hurt Callista terribly, but go in there and kiss him. If he kisses you back, then you’ll know how he feels.”
“Your right.”
I ran inside. Gerard was now sitting on the lounge and Callista was walking over to him. I got to him before her and kissed him, tongue and all. For a second I thought he was going to pull away, but instead he pushed me onto the lounge and shoved his tongue into my mouth as far as it would go. Then he disappeared from me.
“You fuckin asshole!” Callista shouted as she hit Gerard.
“Fuck!” Ray and Bob said as they ran out to pull her of Gerard.
“I hate you!” she yelled as tears ran down her face.
She wriggled away from Ray and Bob’s grip and ran out the door. Melanie chased after her.
“What the fuck happened?” Ray asked.
“This.” Gerard said.
He kissed me and pushed me back again jamming his tongue into my mouth.
Months passed and we stayed together. I could have never been happier than what I was now. I can definitely say that I wouldn’t change anything for the world.
It ended with lovers





:: damn bored ::

babi ar.. arinie bos tak dtg..beta bermaharajalela siak...my work for today:- online sokmo..ngeeee...td aku lepak lunch ngn zai,pi beli rojak n minum cendol.. ngeee... sedap sedap... hahaha..lelepak duk cita pasal epi,dea bengang ngn epi suma(sambil makan cendul) hahaha then dea tanye pasai aku(sambil hirup cendul) hahahaha... siall.... patotnye today dea ajak pi karaoke ikut makcik dea but then tak jadi pulak..herh,kalau ikut pon aku boleh buat ape...bukan aku tau melalak pon.. tak nak lew aku nak duduk umah.. ngaaaa... today my immortal balik kampung... hope dea selamat sampai lew...risau gak aku..buatnya dea tgah drive then dea ngntuk ka...hope tadak pape lah...

sumpah nantok... balik kang nak tidoq..pehtu tidoq..pehtu tidoq..pehtu mak aku hangin...

:: some online story to share ::

Forever......is a lie 2


I’m walking through the halls hearing whispering about me... 

"I heard she shot bobby." 

"I heard the mom came and caught them having sex and shot him." 

"Who cares she’s crazy." 

nobody knows the real story....nobody knows my pain..I’m just 'crazy'....sometimes i wonder if i really am. 

crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy--- 

"Hi my names Miranda, I’m running for school president here’s a smile please vote for me...." 

"Okay...." 

"I'm sorry for asking but people are talking and I’m curious about which story is true." 

"None." 

"well then what happened." 

"I'd rather not talk about it." 

"I'm sorry your right, hey if you need any help, or need someone to talk to....I’m here." 

"Thanks." 

Wow someone hasn’t asked me to talk to them or actually even wanted to talk to me since they thought i killed bobby....why would I? he was the love of my life...my forever and always....but I guess forever is a lie right??? 

"Hey what’s up?" 

I've never seen this kdi in my life....do I look approachable today??? 

"Who are you??" 

"I'm new here...actually...wondering if you could show me around....you seem to be the most decent person here....." 

He was dressed in black pants and an avenged sevenfold tshirt...one of my favorite bands....he had bright green eyes and long black hair.....kinda cute I guess... 

"Decent? Me?" 

"Ummm yea?" 

"You are new...cause if you weren’t you wouldn’t even look at me in the eyes..." 

"OH I think I would...you have amazing eyes...." 

Okay??? 

"I don’t even know your name." 

"Chase....and you." 

"They call me death...for many reasons...my real names Vanessa though hah." 

"Your cute ness. and funny...death...wow. strong word." 

That’s what my friends used to call me.... 

"You’re telling me...' 

"So gonna show me to room B113?" 

"Sure whatever...that’s my class" 

"Awesome I get to see you more...it must be my lucky day..." 

"Yeah okay...." 

Now I know he’s not for real................ 

He was set up...... 

Nobody but Bobby called me cute...... 

He’s not for real. 

Just another reason to be called death.


(sumpah kureng pahe kawe..  )

:: quote of the day ::



those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it.

:: love letter for my immortal ::


kinda miss you...mcm tak caye yg aku now and ko...together..aku happy..sebab aku dapat ko..as a person that i love now... ngeeeee..... tatau nak senyum besaq mana... happy and bersyukur ar dapat ko.. tuhan je tau... thanx anep,sbab trime aku dalam hidup ko... ko datang dalam hidup aku,memang buat aku bahagea,senang hati..aku pon tak mcm dulu..aku igt dulu aku nye life become damn worst sampai bila...but after aku ngn ko,sume pon become..tah.. tatau nak mention cmana... kalau boleh lah, insyaallah, aku nak sangat relationship kite as a friend, and as a couple.. will be together jadi 1. kalau ape yg aku harapkan nie diizinkan Dia,alhamdulilah...we have to work hard for it.. aku trime sume yg ko cakap dekat aku last night... aku hope ko selesa dengan aku,terime aku seadanya,baik buruk aku ko trime and mcm tuh juga aku trime mohd hanief seadanya... hahahaha..sorry... agi satu hal aku ko perlu tau aku nie,jenis susah nak explain face to face... aku tau explain dalam hati,nak luah aku tak pandai..tp kalau bab2 menaip nie aku paling suka..pasaipa..pasai aku boleh taip sepanjang yg boleh... hahaha... today ko nak balik kampung... at last dpt gak aku lepas rendu dekat ko smalam.. thanx anep for spent masa kat aku.. thanx tolong aku pinjam duit.. gagaga.. arinie aku careless whisper lagi... aku tertinggal spek mata aku... hahahaha... thanx teman aku balik and thanx...thanx sangat2... for the 1st kiss.... 

agak2 mcm nie lah rupa aku smalam dalam cab... hahahaha... anep anep..sayang betoi aku dekat ko tak terkata.. kalau ko nak kiss aku ke hug ka apa ka,tak yah minta permissionlah..aku untuk ko,milik ko...ko ase nak kiss ko kiss je mohd hanief..hahahahha... arinie,esok lusa mesti aku rendu kat ang kaw2 punya... hope ko tak lupa aku kat sini lah.. aku tunggu ko balik kl.. nanti kite jumpe yea?hehehehe... anep anep... sayang sangat2 dekat ang... sayang sungguh...


Wednesday, April 29, 2009

:: keep on loving you-The Donnas ::

You shoud've seen by the look in my eyes, baby
There was somethin missin
You shoud've known by the tone of my voice, baby
But you didn't listen
You played dead
But you never bled
Instead you lay still in the grass
All coiled up and hissin

And though I know all about those girls
Still I don't remember
Cause it was us baby, way before then
And we're still together
And I meant, every word I said
When I said that I love you I meant
That I love you forever

And I'm gonna keep on lovin you
Cause it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep
I just wanna keep on lovin you

And I meant every word I said
When I said that I love you I meant
That I'd love you forever

And I'm gonna keep on lovin you
Cause it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep
I just wanna keep on lovin you

:: 29 April 2009, his horoscope for today ::


You are emotionally in tune with loved ones and close friends, so let down your defenses and enjoy the easy atmosphere around you. 

Because you are relaxed and happy with the status quo, everything could now fall into place with someone who you felt unsure of. You can 

also see a recent problem in perspective. Dealing with it should be easier than you thought.

:: 29 April 2009, my horoscope for today ::


Deciding whether you should listen to advice, or back your intuition, even though you have no concrete proof that you are right, could be 

a tricky choice today. Don't act prematurely. Something you discover could well make you change your outlook - and your plans. Whatever 

happens, remember that you have the right to do things your way. What suits someone else may not be right for you.


28042009

you and i,we're together...

:: Don't Cry-Guns & Roses ::

Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Something's changing inside you
And don't you know

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

Give me a whisper
And give me a sigh
Give me a kiss before you tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinking of you
And the times we had...baby

And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember how I felt inside now honey
You got to make it your own way
But you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby

And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight 

Monday, April 27, 2009

:: dear hanief ::

ko jangan melampau2 gelak bace blog aku ..aku sepak pewot ko kang...hahahaha


:: quote for today ::

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."

umm... i hope so... hahaha.... 

:: 27 April 2009,my horoscope for today ::

You pick up instinctively on what remains unsaid between you and another. Back your intuition, 

as the Moon puts you in touch with hidden feelings and emotions. It also helps you find the

 words to win somebody over. Break the ice and leave misunderstandings in the past where 

they belong. This is also a good day for family ties and long-established friendships.

:: Linger - The Cranberries ::

If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn, don't let it fade
I'm sure I'm not being rude
But it's just your attitude
It's tearing me apart
It's ruining everyday
And I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you 

But I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
do you have to let it linger 

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong
I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And I wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to. do you have to
do you have to let it linger 

And I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
do you have to let it linger 

You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you  have to
do you have to let it linger


*aku suka sangat lagu nie..meaning dea sangat best..best..peneman aku dalam toilet,kemane jua aku berada...

:: aksi lucah kami ::




hahaahahaha... anep anep...

aku suka gila kat pic nie.. so,that's why aku attach dekat sini.. anep anep..ko duk buat muka chumei tuh pasaipa...hekhek..btw thanx anep... ajak aku kuwa.. hahaha... aku buhsan tadak sapa... aku sedaq aku sapa..hahaha..cam sial je prangai aku nie...


:: a few days... ::

semakin hari semakin membuak ase suke aku dekat anep...God!! aku bukan ape...aku takut aku tersalah langkah..means if aku tersalah langkah,salah langkah paling besaq skali,aku akan kehilangan dea as kawan aku..aku taknak dow kehilangan dea..dea je sorang kawan lelaki yg paling baik dengan aku..aku manede kawan lain lagi..dea je yg layan aku..dari dulu sampai skang... but ketare skali skarang lew..dea banyak sms ngn aku..kitorang dah 3 hari dari jumaat arituh jumpe...arinie dea teman aku sementare family aku pi J.J aku n dea lepak kat kedai dari kul 4petang sampai kul 10 mlm...dea teman aku...seriously,every second when im sitting beside him,talk with him,laugh with him..everything...tempature hati aku makin naek...naek suke dekat dea...and im proudly to tell here that,rase sayang tuh mcm dah wujud...aku tau its too early for me yg baru putus untuk timbul rase tu... im sorry anep... jujur dari hati aku..aku tak mampu nak deny mende nie... sorry coz aku pendam 1 feeling dalam hati aku..and feeling tuh adelah diri kau...tapi aku tak mengharapkan hati aku dibalas dengan hati ko..sebab aku tau...if aku suke dekat ko  but ko tak ade rase tuh dekat aku,it cannot work...if realtionship as a friend lagi better than be together,aku rela be friend as long im not losing u as my friend. paling aku tak sanggup ilang ko... aku taknak luahkan hati aku dekat ko....sebab aku tak nak trime jawapan selepas aku bitau..aku takut...thanx sesangat anep..ko banyak teman aku,layan aku sume..aku ase happy..since aku down arituh,ko buat aku happy sehappy2nye dengan kehadiran ko..serious aku ckp,ko bebetul buat aku happy...aku sayang kat ko anep..aku sayang sangat... God,if he is made for me,i pray for you,please show it to me... aku bebetul suka dekat dea..hanief..hanief...why you?

Sunday, April 26, 2009

:: 26 April 2009,his horoscope for today ::


You could jump to false conclusions or read meanings into someone's words that are not there today. Don't give into negative emotions, as 

they are not based on how things really stand. You are more than able to win others over - or to re-establish contact with someone that 

you have recently lost touch with. Take the initiative and you could change many things.

:: 26 April 2009,my horoscope for today ::


With the gentle Moon now linking to your Sun, home life comes high on your agenda. Getting closer to a friend or loved one should be easy, 

so plan to spend some time with them, let down your defenses and relax. Being content with how things stand -

 which should be no problem for you - is the key to happiness today. There will be ample time to deal with certain issues. 

Let them wait until tomorrow.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

:: harinieeeee.... ::

sangat berbunga..hahaha..takde lah... semalam aku kuwa ngn anep gi lepak..berdua..but then terserempak ngn nabila n sufi... lepak ar together.. ade satu part tuh kan,aku usha beliau ngah cerite..aku tatau ar aku suke pandang side tepi dea...the way he talk,ke explain something,the way he laugh, and his jinggut..hahahaha....pap!! emi!!! smalam aku duk gelak kat dea coz dea takut lipas..tak pepasal kene bahan ngn aku pasal dea takut lipas...semalam dea nak drive kete,aku bagi ar dea drive...asal aku nak balik je kalau aku drive,mesti dea cakap drive elok2.smalam siap bukak kan pintu untuk aku...huwawawa....walhal dea dah tutup pintu..ngaaaa!!!! BUNGAAAA!!!!! then dea bagi pendrive,salam aku..lepas dah jauh,aku pasan muke dea cam nak paling ke belakang,aku usha je dea,and i was spoke in my heart,if dea sayang aku(tak kisah as a friend or wut) dea akan toleh....DEA TOLEH SIAL!!!!!!!!!! aku terus toleh tmpat laen nnti dea igt aku pandang dea...hakhakak...and then aku dpt msg,dea tanye dah sampai ke...aih...concern gak mamat nie.then aku ckp ar aku dah sampai  and then dea cakap mane tau ko tibe2 dah goal..aku cakap owh ko wish aku ke dah goal...dea kate takde lah memaen je..hahaha..concern gak mamat neh ekceli..dea marah aku pasal aku tak beli ubat sebab aku selsema.. semalam b4 aku tido kite beburak ar..bese lew sebelum aku tutup mate,aku nak msg ngn dea dulu...aku cite ar nnti bufday dea aku nak bagi hadiah...dea igt aku nak hadiahkan lipas..pundek aje....dea kate tak nak bukak hadiah dea nak aku bukak..aku cakap lew aku tak nak bukak... hahaha ekceli aku dah lame plan,nak hadiahkan dea pit guitar...sebab dea suke collect pit guitar...so nanti kalau dea maen guitar,boleh dea pakai pit aku..tatau lew dea nak ke tak...tp aku nak bagi je..nak bagi memahal sumpah tak mampu kan...ngeeeee... then dea tanye mak aku utara ke sebab semalam aku tak igt aku ckp ayat ape..tp ayat tuh ayat utara lah...and then dea tanye nape aku ckp camtuh,bukan kalau bahasa kl bunyi dea laen ke...aku ckp lah dah bese mak aku orang utara...dea tak caye...hahaha...then da cakap nnti kalau free turun ar utara,dea nak bawak aku jenjalan...then dea ckp sementare aku tgah single nie lah nk merse jenjalan dengan dea..nnti dah ade pakwe takleh nak jalan..kiwak btol... aku ckp ar aku nak single sampai bebile...taknak ade pakwe...aku nak ko je lah lahanat...tak paham bahase....tak boleh nak pickup..frundek!!!hahaha...arinie pon aku date ngn dea..msti kene bahan pasal aku pakai skirt..kalau dea bahan aku pukul dea lelaju...sial!!! meet u there anep... :D



:: 25 April 2009,my horoscope for today ::


With clear-thinking Mercury now linking to your natal Sun, you can see your situation in the round and make some very positive decisions. 

So stand back and take a cool, detached approach. You can also convince someone you are right about a 

personal matter. So pick your moment and speak out. You could be very pleasantly surprised by their response. It 

could change many things.

Friday, April 24, 2009

:: I'm a sad panda today ::

im alone..
nobody...beside me..
i cry...i cry and i cry...
no one knows...

::=) ::


tah... arinie tibe2 aku dpt ym dari jack..dea ym aku tanye khabar..and then dea mengadu,dea demam dah 5 harilah apa lah... aku pon tatau nape dea ngadu... seems like dea still nak berkawan ngn aku... wat ape dea still nak kawan dengan aku...dea dah benci aku,dah buang aku... but why he keep on looking at me? aku pon time dea ym aku cume terkejut..coz aku dah delete dea dalam ymlist aku..but then dea ym aku.. tp feeling tuh just cam bese aje.... takde rase nak try dapatkan dea balik,meroyan sebab dea panggil aku or wut..aku just mcm biase...alhamdulilah aku dah trime kenyataan skarang...aku pon hanye orang biase...kalau ikutkan aku nak jd kejam tak layan dea...aku just layan,tp kesalahan yg dea buat,aku susah nak maafkan skarang... skang aku tengah syok2 happy,jgn pasal dea muncul,buat hati aku destroy balik... P MAMPOS DEALAH...CAM BABI JE!!!


:: I AM A SAD PANDA =(( ::





:: 24 April 2009, his horoscope for today ::


What is happening in your inner world of thoughts and feelings should be your priority today. Perhaps a recent meeting, or a new 

relationship, preoccupies you. Don't be afraid to change your situation if you find a new, and better, way forward. 

You will make the right decisions if you listen to your heart and not your head, so let 

no one tell you what to do today.

:: 24 April 2009,my horoscope for today ::


You are determined to branch out and reach a certain goal, but it seems that
you could have to make a minor

 sacrifice to do so. Don't be afraid to leave the beaten track - or let yourself be sentimental about something that is past. One 

aspect of your life is history now. You will soon see that you were right to make the break. If you look towards the 

future, you could get unexpected feedback and support from a new friend.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

:: hekhek ::


























motif = im really miss him... :P sorry anep aku terendu kat ko

:: bored...bored...bored... ::

aku tatau nak send msg ape dekat dea...cam takde idea yg patot di kongsikan...huwaaa...aku nak lepak ngn dea...leh kekutuk gegelak dengan dea...wendu ekceli...asal haa kepale otak aku asek igt dea je?? cam sial je prangai aku nie....tah tatau nak kate cmane...cam pelik ade,cam tak patot ade,cam tak kene pon ade...sume serba tak btoi lew..sakit ati aku lew....babi babi babi

:: First Date Do's and Don'ts ::



Do

  1. Make your partner feel comfortable.
  2. Keep the conversation flows going.
  3. Be an interesting date.
  4. Laugh at their jokes.
  5. Be on time.
  6. Be yourself.
  7. Talk about their interests also.
  8. Be a romantic.
  9. Be confident.
  10. Show respect to your date's wishes.



Don't

  1. Talk about yourself all night.
  2. Be late.
  3. Talk about an ex-relationship all night.
  4. Eat with your mouth open.
  5. Try to be something you are not.
  6. Show disrespect for your partner or their beliefs.
  7. Forget to thank them for the date.
  8. Pursue sex after your partner has said no.
  9. Propose marriage or kids.
  10. Ask too many questions.

:: from BESTFRIEND to LOVER ::

Telling Your Best Friend How You Really Feel
by Brettani Webb

If you have a best friend that you have more than friendly feelings for, and you are struggling to keep your feelings inside, stop struggling! Just let it out. I am convinced that the majority of successful romances began as friendships, and that too many of us choose to do things backwards causing our romantic affairs to fail again and again. True love isn't always hard to find. Chances are that your best friend is exactly who you are looking for. So, while I think there are precautions to take, I say go for it. Before you make your move, read through the suggestions below. They will help ensure an unforgettable moment of truth.

Food for Thought

  • Don't be discouraged by what the grapevine blubbers. If the word is that your friend doesn't wish to advance your relations because risking your friendship isn't worth it…pay the rumor no mind. We all deny the truth on occasion to avoid an embarrassing rejection after an awkward, "I heard that you said that…" 

  • Give yourself enough time to really be sure about your feelings. If your friendship is new, there is a big chance that your feelings are nothing but a crush and will pass. In that case, you would be out a friendship when your romantic feelings diminished.

  • Join in on Lovingyou.com topic forums and message other people in the same predicament. That way, you have a little support group going on, as well as some "been there, done that" advice.

  • If you are nervous, test the waters. There are easy little tricks to use to see if someone likes you that way. Here's one: To escape the rain while shopping, take your friend's hand and take off running. Another appropriate time to do this is during a walk on the beach. Again, grab their hand and take off running to splash in a wave. Sounds silly, I know, but after the sprint is when you get your answers. Are they still holding your hand? Do they get closer to you than normal? Do they seem a little embarrassed or awkward for a moment? All of these things are good signs. If you don't receive revelation after this experiment, wait a couple of days and try another slight physical advance and assess their reaction to that one.

Romantic Ways to Reveal Your Affection

  • Kiss first; talk later. When saying goodbye for the day, take them close and just go for it. There are a couple of different kisses to choose from in this situation. One is the full on lip smacker. Don't use tongue unless they do. Be soft with your lips and your hands. The other is a fun kiss because it allows for first, second and third moves. Same scenario: at the good-bye for now. Give them a quick, but sensual peck on the cheek. Let your face linger near theirs for a couple of seconds before retreating back to your space. That will probably be followed by a question like, "What was that for?" Your answer should be cute and romantic (move number 2). You should say something like, "Oh, I just chickened out…what I meant to do was this!" And then, of course, move number three is the lip smacker. Cup their face in your hands and lay it on them. Kissing this way gives your friend a moment to anticipate your kiss. It ensures that your first kiss is a great kiss.

  • Be spontaneous. At no particular place, at no particular time, just spill the beans. Simply stop doing whatever it is that you are doing, turn to your friend and tell them that the feelings you have for them are so strong that you are willing to sustain possible rejection and pain. You think about them when you wake up in the morning. You have to force yourself to walk away from them every night. Explain that you are laying your heart out for them to take or leave, but that the chance to hold them in your arms is worth the risk.

  • Plan it out. Take them to somewhere utterly romantic and recite to them your written feelings. Treat it like a sort of proposal. Not for marriage, but for moving to the next tier in your relationship. Say something about the past, present and what you would like for the future.

Whichever way you choose to let your feelings emerge; know that you are igniting the first flames of true love. Someday, maybe you will be telling your grandchildren the tale of when you took the leap of love. Make it unforgettable.

:: you make me feel brand new ::

My love
I'll never find the words, my love
To tell you how I feel, my love
More words could not explain
Precious love
You held my life within your hands
Created everything I am
Taught me how to live again

Only you
Cared when I needed a friend
Believed in me through thick and thin
This song is for you
Filled with gratitude and love

God bless you
You make me feel brand new
For God blessed me with you
You make me feel brand new
I sing this song because you
Make me feel brand new

My love
Whenever I was insecure
You built me up and made me sure
You gave my pride back to me
Precious friend
With you I'll always have a friend
You're someone who I can depend
To walk a path that never ends

Without you
My life has no meaning or rhyme
Like notes to a song out of time
How can I repay
You for having faith in me 





:: baru lepas lunch ::


fuck,aku cam trase rendu nak msg dea..but huwaa....nnti2 lew...dea pon ngah lepak ngn bob...wei anep!!!!!!!!!! aku rendu kat ang lewwwww..... :(( aku dok tunggu msg sial ko kat aku dowh... aku baru lepas gi makan dengan zai... duk cita pasai mel...tah aku jadi tak paham... hal aku pon dah abeh setel situ,dea duk keep pushing aku n zai bout joe..YA ALLAH tolonglah.... malas lew nak masuk campow hal korang... dah lepas tuh udah lew..jgn lew duk pikir lagi... biar joe ngn life dea...bagi dea ruang untuk bukak buku baru dea... pelik aku pelik.. yang lagi sorang umair...aku dah kate bagi aku mase untuk aku bernafas....dea nampak aku cam happy tanpe dea...aku dah kate memang aku happy,tp dalam aku takde sape tau...and now aku admit dekat dea,aku rapat dengan anep sebab aku banyak share poblem dgn dea.. so then dea mcm wat aku sangat serabut kenape? you are still my friend lah but plz dont serabutkan aku dengan mende2 mcmnie..aku malas nak pikir lagi hal2 mcmnie..aku nak mulekan hidup baru aku dengan mende2 yang laen dari before...aku tak nak mende serabut lagi dtg dalam pale otak aku yg dah berbelit2 nie....confused lew aku mcmnie...


THE MORE I THINK,THE MORE CONFUSED I GET!!!!


:: sumpah lagi KRONIK+KRITIKAL!!! ::



do check this out!!! fuck!!! hahahaha

:: Amylia and my miracle is.... ::

46%
amylia and "my.miracle" are like Mentos and Coke - cool, unless you don't like explosions.

hahahahaha!!! LOL!

:: My quotes for today :D ::

"When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams."

hahaha...fact!! agak ar...i wont fall asleep just because i wanna text him on message..keep on msging with him... but yesterday aku tatahan sangat,but aku sempat wish goodnite,n he wish me too...!! hakhakhak..sumpah mcm sial!!! 

"I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you."

i didn't care who u are... kalau before nie aku agak "cover" life aku untuk dpt kan someone,tp aku ase aku dengan ko like,duhh ko tau prangai sial aku cmane...boleh gegelak agi macam sial...

"We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love."

coz i know im so weird!!! hahaha..

:: 23 April 2009,his horoscope for today ::

What is happening in your inner world of thoughts and feelings should be your priority today.

Perhaps a recent meeting, or a new relationship, preoccupies you. Don't be afraid to change 

your situation if you find a new, and better, way forward

You will make the right decisions if you listen to your heart and not your head, so 

let no one tell you what to do today.

:: 23 April 2009,my horoscope for today ::


You are detached,
clear-headed and alert today, so concentrate on sorting out an 

issue that you have postponed. You can also overcome somebody's doubts and make 

them see things from your angle if you choose your words with care. In fact, you are 

so eloquent that you can win round any one you choose to. Pick your moment and 

speak out. The stars are on your side today.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

:: 22 April 2009,his horoscope for today ::

You are determined to branch out and reach a certain goal, but it seems that you could have to
make a minor sacrifice to do so. Don't be afraid to leave the beaten track - or let yourself be
sentimental about something that is past. One aspect of your life is history now. You will soon
see that you were right to make the break. If you look towards the future, you could get
unexpected feedback and support from a new friend.

:: 22 April 2009,my horoscope for today ::

Your reason tells you one thing and your intuition quite another. Try to find the middle ground. If you let your feelings cloud your judgement, or react to someone's passing comment, you could make the wrong decision. So don't rush yourself into a choice. A female friend could help you find the answer. Plan to talk the situation through tonight. Detachment is the key today.

:: hari yang penuh berbunga-bunga..wah!! ::

hahaha..tatau tatau....aku sangat berbunga bunga harinie...aku cam ceria sangat arinie..aku nak senyummmmmmmmmm je rase.... trase diriku sangat beharga..takde lah..keceriaan nie mungkin dpt membantu aku untuk lupekan segala kedukaan yang aku penah alami before nie...aku malas nak kekenang lagi mende yang dah berlalu...Alhamdulilah,ape yg berlaku pade aku sebelum nie,mcm ade hikmah tapi aku tak nampak lagi...semoga tuhan menerima setiap doa yg aku pohon padaNya dan berkati hidup aku..Amin... aku mule nak try survive diri aku sensorang,mengenal semule dunia luar yg aku dah lame tinggalkan..aku nak mulekan diri aku dengan bergaul dengan kawan2 yg aku kurang kenal,aku nak biasekan diri aku.... mungkin ade sebab terbaik since malam yg sangat nightmare tuh jadi atas diri aku...dan ia telah membukakan mata hati aku dan menyedarkan diri aku yg terlalu lame tidur dalam kegelapan... sekarang hari2 aku penuh dengan cahaya....hahaha(berbunga ade sebab seh)
wah!!! im missing him....tatau tibe2 rase rendu mcm nak jumpe dea...tingin nak beburak ngn dea,bahan dea,gelak dengan dea,kutuk dea suma..wawawawawa...... shuuuuuuuuuuuu...jgn sampai beliau diketahui..hahahaha....asal haa dea plak yg aku pilih?mungkin sikap dea kot....pelik..aku tingin nak ade sumone yg pelik,dan pelik...cam srunuk...